It's Never Gonna Be Like The Way It Was

She just wants to be happy
She can't get her mind off of him
She really believes something is going on
She who just wants to feel love again
She just realized that she has nothing in LOVE
She is hurt
She knows things have changes
She who can't deal with the changes
She is envious
She is full of questions
She is still not ready to make change
She who wants a quality time with him
She feels rejected
She is losing faith
She is not the sun anymore
She doesn't know what to do
She can't even escape
She feels abandoned
She misses everything
She may be traumatized
She feels betrayed
She only gets empty promises
She may expects too much
She doesn't know everything anymore
She is not so special anymore
She becomes pathetic
She is so unlucky
She is lost

I just hope that you can find what you're looking for Dear, it's only a matter of time..

Unstable Part I

when no one understands
when you feel everything has changed
when comfort zone is so hard to find
when you just don't care
when you just HAPPY to be alone though not by choice
when everything's just so sick and so wrong
when you start losing passion
when you cross the boundaries
when you TRY to have some fun
when you miss everything
when everything is very questionable
when avoidance becomes the best policy
when you find nobody's attractive
when conversation is hard
when smile is fading away
when heart becomes cold and empty
when you really need direction
when you expect too much
when the significant others are less significant
when you start taking instead of giving
when you are so damn sensitive
I guess the PMS has a great role in this phase.. Yeah, I do believe it's just a phase, so maybe the sequels are unavoidable..

Global Citizen Syndrome

Isn't it nice to have more than one place that u can call it home?
Isn't it nice to have more than one family?
Isn't it nice to have been to more places than anyone around you?
Isn't it nice to have more than one social status?
Isn't it nice to miss home when you are in your other home?
Isn't it nice to do things differently in different home?
Isn't it nice to adjust to your surrounding every time you go home?
Isn't it nice to have hearts and hands journey across continents and boundaries?
Isn't it nice to catch up with people when u go home?
Isn't it nice to tell stories about your home to the people in your other home?
Isn't it nice to contribute to your home when you're in your other home?

I just have to remember that life is not only black and white,
but there's also a gray area in it.

I Miss My Wings

I'm so tired of being here
I wanna stop pretending
I wanna stop giving
I hate being such a hypocrite
but I'm still me
So, I just need a break
I believe we pick and choose who we want to be close to
Once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by
no matter how much we hurt them
The people that are still close with you at the end of the day
They're worth keeping
although, sometimes close is too close

20 FOOL Reasons

I like the way you call my name
I like the way you call without any specific reason n just talk rubbish for an hour
I like the way you say something nice about me
I like the way you tease me
I like the way you care about me
I like the way you walk with me
I like the way you stand so close to me
I like the way you put your hands
I like the way you sit
I like the way you smile

Maybe I don't like you,
Maybe I just miss all those things that u did,
Maybe I was too unstable
Maybe I was exaggerating
Maybe I was lonely
Maybe I wanted you
Maybe I wanted someone else
Maybe I was in Love
Maybe I hate you for making me think about you
Maybe it just happened to be you that time

"When I talk about it,
Carried on
Reasons only knew
But it's u I fell into..."