Faithless

When somebody told me something about trust, I started to think........ Is it all about trust? I guess it is.. Is it about somebody who is being so selfish that he or she really needs proof for everything? I'm not sure. Is it about somebody's feeling who is really afraid of what he or she truly feels? Still not sure. "Tuesday, 21st October, 2008"

CUL DE SAC

arguments. arguments. arguments. tears. tears. boredom. smile. arguments. hatred. boredom. arguments. a little bit of joy. boredom. arguments. hatred. tears. smile. arguments.

That simply describes a relationship that i have now.
"Saturday, 10th January, 2009"

'The greatest lost is what dies inside of us when we live, not death itself'

it feels like you're losing direction, no idea where to go
it feels like you're losing your soul, no control over mind and body
it feels like you're alone in the dark, being scared and lonely
it feels like you're running out of time, the heart beating so fast
it feels like you're having a nightmare, so unreal that u just want to wake up
it feels like your heart being stolen, you feel nothing but empty
it feels like your heart being stabbed by thousands of needles, it hurts so much you can't breath

It may also feel like u know 'how completely broken the world is, and u keep telling people I'M OK, I'M OK, but you're not'

Tick...tick...tick...

London, 18th May 2010, 00:23

Time
It changes everything
Good turns to bad, bad turns to worse til it turns better again
Time
It answers everything
Unknown to known, known to unknown
Time
It helps everything
From hurting to healing, from denying to accepting
Time
It flies so fast
In a blink of an eye
Time
It goes by so fuckin slowly
In the chase of a dream
Time
It does matter
That’s what life is about
Coping, fighting, cooperating and dancing with time

It's Never Gonna Be Like The Way It Was

She just wants to be happy
She can't get her mind off of him
She really believes something is going on
She who just wants to feel love again
She just realized that she has nothing in LOVE
She is hurt
She knows things have changes
She who can't deal with the changes
She is envious
She is full of questions
She is still not ready to make change
She who wants a quality time with him
She feels rejected
She is losing faith
She is not the sun anymore
She doesn't know what to do
She can't even escape
She feels abandoned
She misses everything
She may be traumatized
She feels betrayed
She only gets empty promises
She may expects too much
She doesn't know everything anymore
She is not so special anymore
She becomes pathetic
She is so unlucky
She is lost

I just hope that you can find what you're looking for Dear, it's only a matter of time..

Unstable Part I

when no one understands
when you feel everything has changed
when comfort zone is so hard to find
when you just don't care
when you just HAPPY to be alone though not by choice
when everything's just so sick and so wrong
when you start losing passion
when you cross the boundaries
when you TRY to have some fun
when you miss everything
when everything is very questionable
when avoidance becomes the best policy
when you find nobody's attractive
when conversation is hard
when smile is fading away
when heart becomes cold and empty
when you really need direction
when you expect too much
when the significant others are less significant
when you start taking instead of giving
when you are so damn sensitive
I guess the PMS has a great role in this phase.. Yeah, I do believe it's just a phase, so maybe the sequels are unavoidable..

Global Citizen Syndrome

Isn't it nice to have more than one place that u can call it home?
Isn't it nice to have more than one family?
Isn't it nice to have been to more places than anyone around you?
Isn't it nice to have more than one social status?
Isn't it nice to miss home when you are in your other home?
Isn't it nice to do things differently in different home?
Isn't it nice to adjust to your surrounding every time you go home?
Isn't it nice to have hearts and hands journey across continents and boundaries?
Isn't it nice to catch up with people when u go home?
Isn't it nice to tell stories about your home to the people in your other home?
Isn't it nice to contribute to your home when you're in your other home?

I just have to remember that life is not only black and white,
but there's also a gray area in it.