Neverending

i'm worried,,
when will I start reading the book for my essay?
when will I start writing my essay?
when will I finish my essay that due in four days?
when will I get my results for this semester?
when will I go for my holiday?
when will I finish my bachelor degree?
when will I finish my master degree?
when will I finish my doctoral degree? should I do it?
when will I get a job?
when will I open my own company?
when will I meet the love of my life?
when will I get married?
when will I have babies?
when will I meet Wentworth Miller? seriously..
when will I travel around the world?
when will I die?
when will I know how life after death is ?
i'm still worried that these worries will never come to an end though it's only the "whens"

Trust Issues

I really am having problem with trust
it's really hard for me to put my trust in something, someone or even somewhere
one stupid ad said: "Not everything that you've heard is true"
yeah, I took that word seriously
though by 'not everything' slightly means one part maybe is
but it's a hard work to define which part is true and which part is not
sometimes i think that 'if trust does exist, we really are close to a life that will never happen'
I may sound really sarcastic and problematic here, but
It's not that I don't trust anything
It's not that I don't trust anyone
It's not that I have been betrayed so badly
It's not that I have never trusted anything before
It's not that I have never trusted anyone before
It's just me.