Whatevership

Have you ever felt something that you've never felt before? It took you by surprise the mighty energy of attractions coming from an unexpected human being. No matter how hard you've been trying to deny it, it just keeps coming back to you.

Images of those sleepless nights: constant conversations with random laughter under the green umbrella, drive along the empty streets guided by city lights, sing along the guitar strumming under a cold rainy night, dance away the fear with a rapid heartbeat, walk along a crowded space with fingertips across the skin, a non-stop chats arguing over silly matters, multiple hidden confessions through continuous song references, long calls of exchanging each other's life story, those nights that sometimes were a blur of vodka or whisky, Images of those sleepless nights.

Simultaneously assuming it's all only in your mind which scares the images away, on and off withdrawal from things that you really wanna say or do, over-thinking every single thing instead of just feeling it, you keep building new illussions to shield you from reality or the truth, even though you can't even tell what's real and what's not.

How come something that happens so instantaneously are so hard to be let go? As if there's some kind of irresistible force that draws you two together, although, you don't know whether the only thing that keeping you two apart is maybe a success or a failure to embrace your destiny.